Hey guys, this is my first blog post, and it's going to be short.
But I just wanted to start this thing off talking about something that I've been thinking a lot about lately, especially now that I've just released my own personal site and I'm finally moving out of my families house, and that is vulnerability and how important it is in succeeding.
Being vulnerable has a stigma associated with weakness I think, and I feel like people tend to put up a front all the time in an effort to kind of protect themselves against the judgement of others. People can even tend to feel alone when they're surrounded by people that they love because they don't allow themselves to be completely open and vulnerable, and you can get like this weird feeling of dissatisfaction from being in a group sometimes.
I can recognize times when I don't allow myself to be vulnerable, like when I'm having a really bad day and I wished I had someone to talk to, but I tell myself to toughen up and not bother my friends or family with a phone call of distress because I don't want to be a burden on their day, too. I've realized how silly and hurtful that is to myself lately. It only makes me end up feeling more lonely.
I think allowing yourself to embrace your vulnerability and open up with your friends and family can only be a good thing. It allows you to get some relief, and it really deepens the connection of love and understanding between you and the other person. Not only that but I've realized that I am worthy of receiving love during my darkest hours and that I am also willing to give that love to someone else in need as well. It seems like such a simple concept, but I know there are so many people who struggle with believing they are worthy of feeling a connection in that moment for the sake of their ego, and deprive themselves of any resolution within themselves because they think they need to do everything on their own all the time.
That is the beauty of human connection, though, is that you can be vulnerable to receive criticism and heartbreak and you can be vulnerable to receive love and deep connection, but I'd rather take either of those than closing myself off and feel nothing at all.
This can really translate into my life as an artist as well. I've just started becoming more and more open with releasing my art and promoting my new site that I worked so hard on. I have to be prepared to take criticism and risk feeling really vulnerable to the opinions of people from all over the world, especially when it comes to modeling. But I realize if I don't take this chance, I will never open myself to the possibility of a wonderful journey unfolding! Following your dreams can be scary, and being vulnerable is risky, but you can't expect to live a beautiful authentic life without taking risks.